How grateful i am that filled with a lot of friends. For me, friends are necessary for living and i am giving importance to them (though kcheapan haha). But what if you know that the person you’ve been in years certainly pulls you down, discredits you, or talking bad sides of you when your not around? Is it considered as treachery? i only think it’s just all about ‘changes’. But did they really changed? or just you dont know the person yet despite the years together? Whatever the reasons, it displeases me a lot.

Would it be possible to annihilate my anger that dwells inside me and get rid out of it? I used to be forgetful. Anyhow, it helps me to overcome my anxiety, however, it cant totally ease the pain. My mind usually rules my world, not my heart. It tells me how things keep goin’. Then, my obsession takes place……and I found it by being vindictive. Yes, this is the real me BUT i remain temper and always done it successfuly. Thank GOD, it works. Also, I had came to the point that i ought to have an open forum with that person. hahaha… Here i always fail. I dont have enough confidence and temerity after all. For now, my mind balances the things that pulls me down and pushes me ups. If pulls exceed, I GIVE UP!! It’s gettin’ unfair.